Monday, December 3, 2007

My feelings now. . . I do not know how i felt, i cant feel how i felt. . . Tragic.

My life's in a mess now! I'm really afraid of going down to that darn basketball court of 260! I just to not want to know or hear anything regarding my sister. . . Cos she doesn't give me good news. All bad. I really hope she dont pull me down in everything she does. . . But still, i treat her as my sister. I wont dump her, i will also still be her bro, and she will always be my sister- forever.

I just want to work all day now. Just keep flooding my mind with work and nothing else, cos i do not want to know extra things, even if there are good news. I just want to stay clear of her underworld stuffs. Sister, i think u wont do this to me. I trust u.

Today play bb at 260. Saw that yi quan(bastard ben), i really wanted to tell him right at his fucking face, ' u better dont hurt zhiqin!' I didnt, sorry sister. Then bastard ben play next team. I couldnt image i am going to play a match against a bastard who gonna hurt my sister, whom i really care abt! I felt like making him a cripple so that he cant hurt my sister. Why must he always target young gals. Why dont he just go geylang and get it done?! Why must he target my sister! Gods, if u can hear me, i am feeling terrible. I cant do anything to help my sister! I felt so useless! So God, please protect my sister from all evils and danger- forever!

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