Wednesday, December 12, 2007

11.12.07 was yesterday. It's a day i do not know if i should remember or not.

I was talking with fiona at msn lah. while we were talking, she pop up with this qn, she asked abt my nick- i really want you to be by my side. I thought there's no point in hiding anymore. I told her i liked her, i asked her to be my gf. All this while, my heart was pumping hard, so hard that i could hear, my hands were trembling, every moment, every second of this confession. She rejected me, she wants to just stay as friends. I asked her 2 more times. The answer didn't sway, still a determined NO. I felt like crying. I couldn't stand rejection, I'm so weak- emotionally. In the end i still held them back. In the end, i told her i'm gonna have a early night. But i didn't go to sleep. I called joanne to talk on the phone. Joanne is really a good friend. I will make u my friend for life! I just told her I'm in tears now. She didnt bother to ask why, she just asked if i need her to call me over the phone to talk abt it. I really appreciated it. We talked very long. Nearly 2 hrs, could be longer not for the fact that my phone was low on bat. Arh! We talked abt many stuffs, the part why i'm sad, i think we just spent the most 10 mins on it. She's really an innocent gal, She just can make me smile with that, with she unknowingly XD. I'm really fortunate to make u my friend! Really thanks for it, joanne.

U mended a broken heart.
U gave me hopes and dreams.
I began to see U as the final piece
In the completion of my life.
Realised that i couldnt hide it anymore
I just confessed and i asked.
My world went crashing.
My heart broke to pieces again.
I really want to break out crying.
I didn't, held them back.
Couldn't bear to face u
Went for an early signout.

Today go out with ws and melissa, to city hall, suntec. Just walking ard. Went to starbucks, 3 shared 1 large cup, talked there. Then walked ard again. We were always playing a fool with one another. She was fun to be with. Then went compass eat. Talked again lor, this time cl joined us, he was darn shy. Ya, that's it, goodbye to melissa. I disturbed her at the interchange. Haha. Went back to bbc, play some bb. Then slack ard, then home. Rather tired from all these walking ard, but worth it, fun never left us XD

11-12.12.07 tue- wed

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